Barefoot and...

...raging mad!

    I am sure when this baby comes out I will look back on all the things that get me so fired up and laugh... right? Or is this permanent?

  So lately I have noticed I am irritable in excess.  Some things have always bothered me - like the cat coming in to wake us up at 4 a.m. I usually just feed her and grumble about how much I hate her, but recently I have been a little more harsh (mostly in language- but sometimes in the manner in which I pet her).

  Other things are totally new annoyances. Like when my aunt swishes water in her mouth. I don't know if this is new - or if I just started noticing it.  When she starts it before bed I have to leave until she is done.  It just takes so long!

   This morning's grapefruit really set me off.  I went to cut it in half and could only find a short knife also the cutting board was NO WHERE to be found! I looked high and low. Meanwhile G was calling my name - I'd call back "just a minute" of course she could not hear, so she continued calling me.  I just needed to hurry and cut this stupid grapefruit and I could bring it to her and then see what she needed. Kept calling me. "just a minute!" I said again  -Oh there was the cutting board- located in its usual place. I tried cutting it will my jr. knife, it was not sufficient so I got the bigger knife out and finished it off.  She called for me again. Then one half of the jagged juicy grapefruit rolled into the sink into a sprinkling of cinnamon sugar! ARGH GROSS! G called again ( this was all in a matter of like 90 seconds so don't think she was being neglected ) So now I am flustered and FURIOUS and leave the grapefruit to sit in the filth to which it rolled (it's own choice) and go see what she wanted.  -Oh she just wanted me to know that she was ready for her grapefruit...  AHHHHHHH  (I did give her the one that didn't roll into the sink just FYI.  The one in the sink I imagined throwing over the wall into the street and watching it get run over by trucks, but in real life Q made me rinse it off.)
  
  Well I thought I was maybe getting "caregiver burn out" cause I have been here for a long time and though G doesn't need much help - it is still draining all day everyday.  The only symptoms I had were irritability and constant fatigue.

Another thought I had was maybe I need to go to the gym and sweat more.  I have been going pretty much everyday for the last 2 weeks (cause 12x = $20 discount, and of course I went the last 12 days of the month) but I haven't really been working hard like I used to.

 So I went to the source of all knowledge and googled "anger and pregnant" and apparently thats a thing too*. Which makes me feel at least a little better.  Quintin probably won't be too excited though.

This is not a good picture and it was a couple weeks ago, but I can't make a post with out a pic.

 

This was probably at 17 weeks.  Some days I look pregnant other days I just look chunky.

 I think I am up about 8 lbs. 

*the other day I googled "unmotivated and lazy and pregnant" -also pretty common I guess.